Over the past 10 days, I have spent a great deal of time creating a slideshow for our facilitator to take to Haiti with her. The purpose is to show the kids our lives here at home. I showed some of that, but because I have traveled there twice in 6 months, and because I know my girls love photos not only of themselves, but also their friends at the "O", I included those photos too. The other reason S. asked for videos/slideshows is because she is hoping to take a road trip to one the the villages that many of our children come from, and she wanted something to show the birth parents. She asked that we not include pictures of our things, "houses, rooms, etc" however I did a bit of that because it was inherent in telling this story, and I don't think anyone is going to get too excited about a Christmas tree, I saw quite a few of them in Port-au-Prince last month. I also don't think the Haitians are going to think I am rich when they see my house as I definitely do not live in a McMansion! (I call it "cottage living"... instead of upgrading to a newer and bigger house this year, I spent my money on adopting these two girls.) At any rate, many of the pictures on this montage have been on this blog at one time or another, hence my title today!
I have not been feeling real creative or motivated in the blogging department lately. I have discussed this feeling with a few other moms on our group, and I see that we fall into similar funks over similar reasons. One thing that throws me off is when I am expecting progress in an area of my adoption, and I am waiting, waiting, waiting for the news. I hate it, but it robs me in some inexplicable way and it's hard to write. I feel very flat. I know I'm not "supposed" to let it get to me, but on some level, it sure does. The other thing is that both times I have come home from Haiti, I have kind of hunkered down within myself. Initially I am so high when I get back I think I can take on the world, but reality crashes in pretty fast. For me, it has everything to do with leaving my girls behind. I find I do not suffer alone in this. Some other moms have expressed the same.
Two things have helped: getting alot of necessary work done around the house, and working on this project. I am not real computer savvy, so it was a challenge. It is 13 minutes long. It says it's eighteen minutes, but it's not, that was some extra music that got stuck way out in cyberspace that I could not get off the file. Like I said, I am no genius!
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